Thankfully, the hotel reopens next week, which means my tasks this past week have had more importance and deadlines have been set. Last week, I was sick of feeling down and randomly decided to watch a TedTalks that showed up in my email titled “The Power of Vulnerability.” The speaker, Brené Brown, talks about how we crave connection with others and vulnerabilities place in that connection and shares her struggles with being vulnerable. Brown says:
“Courage is the ability to tell the story of who you are with your whole heart… Be willing to let go of who you should be in order to be who you are…Have the courage to be imperfect.”
That is so powerful to me.
Courage: to tell the story of who you are with your whole heart.
After reflecting on this for the morning, my boss started making his rounds around the hotel. After I mentioned the TedTalks I had watched that morning he asked,
Who are you?
Who do you want to be?
And you know what? It was difficult to answer these questions out loud. We often ask and answer these questions to ourselves internally in our own minds and to be asked them out loud provides a quite different approach to self-reflection. Suddenly, we question who we are once we are expected to answer it out loud. It creates a discomfort of sorts as who we are collides with who others think we are and who we are expected to be.
As I enter the summer season, a season to take those two steps forward again, I’m reflecting and defining who I am and who I want to be. Always growing, and open to transformation.
I’m Ashliegh. I’m ridiculously trusting of others, blunt and outspoken, and quirky in endearing, and not so endearing ways. I like to be challenged and I like to challenge others to grow (though I need to learn who is open to being challenged). I’m the type of person who will move half way across the world to a place where I know nobody, hell, I don’t even have to know the language! I will be vocal about something I don’t like (actions, the way I’m treated, etc.). If I’m angry, I don’t hold back. I crave for financial stability. I’m open to sharing my crazy stories and life experiences, if you’re open to listening to them. I like to be asked deep questions that make me reflect on said stories and you better believe I’m going to ask you deeper questions.
So hello world. This is me. Let’s make this a summer of magnificent transformation. Hope you’re in for the crazy ride.